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hahahhah its what, almost 3 years this time. LOL.

testing out this client app on my new phone...maybe ill post more than once every 2
years lol

my back itches in an unscratchable spot. damnit.

so I have a birthday in a few days. Dosent look good. I'll be 27. wooo.

My daughter is 2 1/2 now and definately acting it. Mood swings to match her momma ;p Well actually, hers are nothing like mine. It seems my bipolar disorder has been running rampant in my life again, nearly destroying that which I hold dearest to my heart. My relationship has reached a standstill. He has his own things he needs to take care of, and needs time alone to do so. Maybe thats for the best, so I can learn to overcome this and get on the right track for myself. I miss him though.

My landlords trying to evict me on false premises. its a long ugly story.

I just stood in front of my mirror. All this stress and I can tell I've been loosing weight. I look better than I have in a very long time... VERY long time. if only i could take a decent picture, lol.

more random updates from the life of lisha to follow.

Current Mood: hopefulhopeful

yeah yeah.. it's been months :) although working full time and spending my afternoons with my daughter, finding time to post is not at the top of my priority list but it's been so long and since i have a few minutes to myself, i thought now would be a good time. this year has had a lot of interesting twists and turns. the dissolvment of a lifelong friendship, the seperation of a relationship, full time job and.... a car! yep, I finally have my own car. all paid off and everything. 99 chevy prism 4 door, great gas mileage, etc... i <3 having a car.

Today Taylor turned 17 months. She's a smart cookie. learning to dress herself already. Says about 15 words, ball, blue, ni ni, fish, etc... blows kisses, plays peek a boo... even put a puppet on her hand and went "BLAH!" just like I do when I put it on and make it spit out its tounge at her... she sneaks up the stairs sometimes (she's quick :), she likes to step into her toy crate and pile her toys in her lap, loves to take her baths... she is really good about following directions.... unfortunately i dont have any recent pics that are online right now, my computer is on the fritz so i am using tims but i'll try to upload some soon.

in other news, i'll be 26 in 2 weeks... the downhill adventure begins, hehe ;p.

once my computer is up and running i'll try to post some more and catch up with people... untill then you can send me a message on myspace if you want, I might not see any responses to this.

take care all... hope everyone is well :)

why is this hurting me, and not you? why does it feel like I care, and you quit? Are you worth feeling this way for? If you can close me out of your heart so easily, was I ever there? How can you shut me out, and not even give me an explination? I wish I could forget you as easily as you forgot me. When you really love someone, its not that easy.

I never shut you out of my heart. You're still there, although you don't believe it. I didn't remove you first. I didn't, don't, never have and never will make any posts about you behind your back. I always told you that whenever you needed me, I'd be there. I always wanted you to know you could call me day or night, whenever you needed. I tried to be the best friend I could be for you through the darkest part of your life. I did everything I could to be there for you, believing I was doing what I did because you would do the exact same for me, if I was the one going through it. I hurt for your loss, weither you beleive it or not. I still hurt for you. I miss you, even if you do not believe me. I miss how you used to ignore what others thought of you, realzing that the judgement of someone who didnt even know you or anything about you didn't matter to you at all, you were above caring and wasting your lifes energy on someone elses ignorant perceptions. I miss the part of you that just didnt give a shit. I worry about you all the time. I know some of your family history, and that it is hereditary, and that yes, you are exhibiting an outbreak of symptoms by the aburpt and sudden changes you've gone through. Where's the carefree girl I once knew? Wheres the woman who called me her best friend, a loving term that filled me with joy and peace and sisterhood to hear it come from you? Why have you distanced yourself from me so far? Why are you pretending to be someone you aren't? Why are you letting yourself become the things you hate? Are you mad at me for leaving? Are you mad at me for having something you don't? What, and who, have told you you can't? I won't give up 10 years that easily. Because if this were the other way around, I don't beleive you would either. I really miss you.

Current Mood: hopefulhopeful


Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful

Tis the Season to be Jolly fa la la la la, la la la la! I can't find my address book... so my email is soul.light@comcast.net, I wanted to just surprise everyone, but without my address book I can't. *hint hint*

I saw this from Jackie and Lori's journals.... it's very cute:

On the twelfth day of Christmas, soulmoonchild sent to me...
Twelve staffs drumming
Eleven swords stargazing
Ten elves a-channeling
Nine cats breastfeeding
Eight unicorns a-meditating
Seven daggers a-parenting
Six religions a-dreaming
Five anci-i-i-ient beings
Four past lives
Three ancient souls
Two dream meanings
...and a tarot in a poetry.
Get your own Twelve Days:

I love you


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